I recently had a new crush, Dabura Karaba, from JJK modulo. I haven't read the manga yet (I haven't even finished the JJK manga). He reminds me of Sukuna, but the good one. Well, of course, he is powerful and has a good character, seems to be better alternative to Sukuna who is you know, cool but a baddie.
Unfortunate thing is upon hearing the ending of JJK modulo, he comes back to earth and there are hints of maybe possible love interest between him and the chef Kyoko Tomoe. I felt betrayed, brokenhearted and even jealous. Yeah I know the feeling sucks and its very annoying and stupid, but I really felt it. Cried over it for some days and yeah even got some headaches and tension, and I was like a bit out of it. I really have to come to terms with my feelings and trying to resolve it myself with the help of Gemini. Just when I thought I found someone good and powerful, someone else takes his heart.
I know it's unfair not to me but of course to the characters especially Kyoko. (Yeah even they are not real). She deserves love and she seems to be a kind person. And of course, the author is compassionate enough to give the characters a happy ending especially happiness to Dabura. I understand this completely. That's why I hate the feeling I have.
Yeah I am a jealous person. I knew it from the start. Even from friendships when I was a kid. Until with the characters I have crush on. The reason I released some of my anime crushes like Sesshoumaru and Shikamaru. I did also have some setbacks with Yami Yugi and Allen Walker as they too have been shipped with someone else in the series. That's why I always end up with mostly villains who have no love interest or relationship.
I have to cope by listening to love songs, both sweet and heartbreaking songs.
In the end, I know I chose Sukuna first. Just like how Dabura chose Kyoko first. In my mind, he can be 2nd husband of my OC after Kyoko passes away. Since he is a Simurian and possibly does not age fast as humans do. So fair right? Like my OC and Dabura have relationship in the first chapter of their life and they end up being couple in the next since my OC is immortal.
Haven't really written the story or fanfiction yet but ideas are in my mind. They are just all mixed up coz scenes and stories keep changing and new ideas and characters emerging. Not even sure it will be possible to materialize especially with my schedule but I just hope I can put these ideas in some place and let it sink in. Plus I cannot really start to write the fanfic especially I did not really read the original manga yet.
I hope I can get over this feeling quickly. I have lot of other important things to do and it distracts me.
